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Resolved: To assess my spiritual health

48. Resolved, constantly, with the utmost niceness and diligence, and the strictest scrutiny, to be looking into the state of my soul, that I may know whether I have truly an interest in Christ or no; that when I come to die, I may not have any negligence respecting this to repent of. – Jonathan Edwards

Psalm 51: 1-3 Have mercy on me, O God, according to your steadfast love; according to your abundant mercy blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin! For I know my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me. 

How often do you do take an inward look and assess where you are spiritually compared to one year ago? Are you aware of your sins? Are you willing to admit to them?

It seems so easy in this postmodern society to come up with great excuses for everything we do. It’s not really sin, it’s just_______. I can’t help it that I did ___________, because when I was a child __________. Nothing is our fault and that’s just accepted. It shouldn’t be so among believers though. We should be always taking a spiritual inventory.

I remember when I had to take a college course that required me to fast and pray regularly as part of the learning. There came a time when I was reading the Bible and I started crying. Just weeping, and I didn’t know why. I looked back down at what I had been reading in Psalm 51 and it hit me so hard.

Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight (v.4)
My actions had been in direct disobedience to God and I had been acting like that meant nothing. It weighed heavy on me, only to be lifted somewhat as I read on.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. (v.17)
When I brought my brokenness to the Father, He comforted me and restored me. Christians tend to downplay the importance of this, but we should be doing it as a regular part of life. Not looking at what religious activity we’ve done, but looking in a very real way at how we’ve been walking with the Lord.